Overboard



Sometimes I over think
I eventually over feel
In the process of it, I over love
Unfortunately, in the end, I over stress
Such things make me conflicted
I feel so confused

Why can't living be so easy?
Why can't loving be done simply?
Being hurt happens to everybody
Pain is a part of living
We move on, we learn

Some days I have so many thoughts
Some days I have too much emotion
Some days I feel so empty
Being with a crowd and yet so lonely
Is this what I will always be?

I'm so done, I feel overwhelmed
When everything just hurts even my head
My heart longs for something else
I yearn to belong somewhere else
I guess to some it ends up in tragedy but I hope not me

I don't want to be this way
I hate to be suffering
Yet here I am doing the same thing each day
Some days I stare blankly into nothingness as my tears roll away
Maybe if I close my eyes it will all just go away

But this is not a fantasy
This is nothing but reality
No matter how hard we try or how hard we cry
Some things are never meant to be
Nothing will ever be perfect but I'll be okay if I think that way

So I hold on to my sanity
Hoping that one day I will find clarity
For every moment that passes by
I continue to hope to be happy
One way or another, perfect or not, I'll be free

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