Not Everyone's Cup Of Tea

It is funny and sad to realize that the person you used to spend so much time with talking to has suddenly become a stranger to you. Remembering what you had in common then and comparing then and now, doesn't help. You are only left wondering what made you like each other in the first place. Such bittersweet moments make life different. They make us change. I realize that now. I'm not angry about it. I'm pondering. I have always been an over thinker and analyzing situations keep me busy sometimes. I know I have made some questionable decisions in the past and even now I feel like I have still. But they always say never regret making them for they can either teach you something or perhaps even take you to a better place. Perhaps I am a little bit upset. When it comes losing connections, I feel the loss. Although I am good at hiding it or I am good at keeping myself distracted, my feelings and thoughts remain glued to it. Just recently I found myself in a dilemma. I used...

source: Konbini on Instagram: “📷 @martasyrko” There are so many things I want to say, So many reasons I wish to convey, Yet my mind is a blur, I feel like there's too much inside, I'm overwhelmed yet so hollow, I'm pained yet I'm not crying, The tears I wish would flow, I don't know why they can't anymore. Mourning the loss of your friendship got me here, Why is it that I can't remember losing you as my lover then? Could it have been so long ago that my heart no longer remembers? Could it be that I was too young to feel deeper then? I can't fathom how I did it then, How I survived such a heartbreak, How I have so much changed after it, I don't know them all. To talk to you again was a surprise, I welcomed it but thought it could be a disguise, It was so long since we held a conversation, It made no sense to feel comfortable, Yet we were fools to feel the connection once more, We lingered in talks when we weren't...